Cryptic Feelings of Happiness

What goes around comes around.

I tried so hard for years to make certain people see what I suspected was going on. They were oblivious. They pushed for their rights. They wanted to be a part of the picture of life.

Finally things have come full circle. Finally, now that I'm beyond caring, they are realizing that what they pushed for, may have not been the best thing. People aren't always what you want to think they are. Even a parent has to realize that sometimes and come to the understanding that your child may have just really messed up their life this time. Finally they realize this. Finally they see a glimpse firsthand of the craziness, lies, discrepancies, mumblings, bursts of anger, self-pity and self-loathing.

I don't wish them harm. I truly feel like a strawberry shortcake character looking innocently on to the happenings. I hope he gets straighted out for him. But for now it's nice to have a break. It's nice to not have to worry about That. It's nice to not have phone calls or to drive places I don't want to drive or drop the kid off in the meth neighborhood for the night. It's nice to just live life the way I pushed for five years ago. Back then I would have felt like I won. Today, I'm past caring.

The unfortunately not angry anymore side of me has pity. The happy side of me can't stop smiling.

I love my kid.