That's me.
I'm sitting here eating my mysterious orange melon, not cantelope, not watermelon, just orange mixture melon that lacks a bit of flavor, and I'm contemplating what in the world to do with myself. "Set your sights high." people say. "Don't settle for something that you're better than." yeah right.
Set your sights high until you realize that the jobs that you want to have, other people already fill and you are left applying at places like Bath and Body Works or American Eagle. Yes, I applied at retail jobs today. Ugh. I sunk into a deeper depression just now admitting that out loud. The good news is that apparently from the way I was dressed, I am qualified to work at American Eagle and they are willing to hire me today. I wish that made me happy.
I can honestly work almost any job and be content. Money is money right? For now at least? I'm just having a hard time seeing myself working at American Eagle and sincerely being invested in the size and cut of a person's jeans. I wouldn't mind having a discount there, but I'm not sure how good the fit is. A part of me thinks, "Yay. Finally something that I'm qualified for." but then I realize that the guy who is calling me to hire me is about eight years younger than me. Depression. I don't know what to do with myself. Do I take the job and start making at least a little bit of money immediately, or do I hold out for even a job at Fleet Feet or something like that who "might" be hiring. What does 'might' be hiring mean? Am I good looking enough? Do I run enough? Do I have the right credentials to work in a running store? I don't know. Honestly, as much as I complain about running, perhaps I shouldn't work there. Ugh again. I'm pretty sure I hate this part of my life. That's all for now. This is my couch therapy time again. Thanks everyone for skimming this blog. (natalie)
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
P is for Pathetic
Posted by honestgrl at 12:21 PM
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3 comments:
I wasn't lying before when I said I thought I was having a 1/4 life crisis... I should blog about it. I'm not going to lie, whining helps sometimes.
On the up side, a discount would be nice.. as would money. But what do I know? I'm in the same boat that you are. :-(
... I don't have a crying corner. Maybe I should have one too. ;-)
Take the job and run to work everyday, That will make you better then the little kids who are just there to socialize.
Oh, you know what you should check into, substitute teaching, you jsut have to have 90 college credit hours and a background check. They call you everyday and you can say yes or no. And you can make close to $100 a day depending on the area. That's what I wanted to do, but didn;t have the guts...kids can be mean.
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