I found myself alone with a few extra minutes tonight and did some browsing online of old highschool classmates on MySpace. I'll just put it out there first and foremost that I'm probably not the nicest person. Secondly, if you think I'm not nice now, it was even worse in highschool. I blame it on my roommate Natalie who picked everyone apart and got me going on this critical road I travel. (Ha ha just kidding Natalie...I think...but not really.....you were the best roommate ever! Yay!) I digress.
So upon looking up classmates I had many a good laugh to myself (much to boysmile's dismay across the room) as I saw who ended up where with what kind of kids and who they married, and if they actually came out as a lesbian (I always knew it!) blah blah blah. Some people got fatter. Some funny looking people got married to other funny looking people. Some people got really bald and gained a little bit of weight and can now grow facial hair to the point that I almost didn't recognize him...at all...not that we were best friends in the first place. And some people look relatively the same. I'm not sure where I fall in that category. All I could say outloud over and over again was, "I don't want to get fat. I don't want to get fat." I'm sure being pregnant and watching the scale inch up ever so slightly has put even more of this fear in me. I'm going to be the girl at the 10 year reunion who people ask, "Who is that fatty McFatcakes and her two children? Her poor husband. Bet he never knew what he was getting when he married her."
My imagination is obviously running wild with this, but you see what I mean. I don't want to be that girl. I don't want to be fat. I'm hoping that my extreme fear of this will keep me active enough to not grow rolls on my elbows (I saw that today. It's sad to me.)
I want to de-fat the world. It's a goal of mine. Starting with myself.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
An Alumnist's Thoughts
Posted by honestgrl at 7:56 PM
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WHOA! Hold it. Who are those people in the photo?? Are you telling me that I'm sitting here all by lonesome while that girl was able to snag that guy?! Oh the humanity!! *ahem*... (I think that statement just proved that I am much more judgmental and mean than you are).
I feel so left out not sitting on your couch being able to judge people with you- and having Kevin shake his head at what dreadful humans we are. Ahhh, *tear*. ;-)
Oh, and being pregnant doesn't mean you're fat. It's sort of different being a "human greenhouse" and sitting around eating anything that's not nailed down. Don't worry.
I was looking at photos from before all this endurance related stuff- you know before I became a "morbidly obese 50 year old", *ahem*, anyway.. let's just say that the pictures are horrifying. I'm not sure, but something happened to my neck at one time in my life- as in, I don't think I had one. Let's just say that that's motivation enough. Ha. Those photos should be BURNED!!
Oh, and who were you looking at? I'm curious now. You knew a lesbian? Whaaat? Who? How can you tell? Was she taking prom photos? or... *ahem*.
Oh and don't you mean, "who is that fatty McFatcakes and her THREE children"??
Oh, were you not telling anyone yet about having twins? Ooops. My bad.
;-)
hehe...
Twins? I know she was just trying to start a rumor.
About the blog... did those two go to our school? I know I say mean things, but at the same time, there are some things I say that as soon as I do, I feel so terribly guilty. Come on, don't act like I never tell you how sexy your legs are. And yeah, who's a lesbo? I'm kinda curious bnow too. I probably wont remember them anyways.
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